We spent the greater part of the season house hunting. Can I just tell your that HGTV makes house hunting look super fun?
But, that’s not exactly accurate. Shopping for a new home is stressful. Seriously stressful.
You go out looking with a certain idea of what kind of home you’d like . . .only to find that your ideal home exists only in two places–HGTV and Pinterst. And, that ideal home costs about $200,000 more than you’ll make. Ever.
Then a ping pong tournament begins in your brain. The back and forth of “what do we really need” versus “wow, it would be nice to have this in a new home.” There’s the feeling of excitement when you schedule a showing for a home new to the market, only to be let down when you walk through and find out that the space smells horrible or the photos did an awesome job masking the cracks in the wall or messed up flooring.
It’s an up and down yo yo between possibility and despair . . . and it all begs one question:
Can I really trust God?
In the case of house hunting, I call into question God’s goodness and His sovereignty. Will He really lead me to the best home for our family? Does He really care about where we live? Will He help us find the location that will, ultimately, be best? Or, more generally,
In some ways this is the root question of our body image issues, too. Can I trust God to love me, take care of me, provide for me? Or, must I strive to look like culture’s definition of beauty to find my own love…provision…and protection?
Do I buy the beauty lie that says if I’m beautiful, my life will be better? Or, can I trust what God’s word says about true and lasting beauty? Do I believe that the eternal matters more than the here and now?
Buried within all those questions is the same one I’m wrestling with in our attempt to find a new home: Can I really trust Him? Will He really provide?
If you are wrestling with this question, can we pray this together today?
Dear God, please reveal to us today a clearer sense of your presence and love today. Draw us close to your heart so we can lay our anxiety and worries at your feet and know that you do, indeed, love us beyond what we can fathom. Remind us that the whole world is in your hands and that you are, indeed, trustworthy. In Jesus’ name, Amen.