The monitor kept beeping, and she pushed the oxygen filter up my nose. "How's your pain?" she asked. I couldn't muster a half smile. I made a so-so motion with my hand. "Do you need something more for the pain?" Impulsively I nodded yes. Of course. I don't like pain....
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Full: Food, Jesus and the Battle for Satisfaction
Bark Thins. Make-my-doctor happy, non-GMO chocolate combined with sea salt and almonds. They are my kryptonite. So, when we swung by Costco on Thursday night so that my husband could pick up some snacks for his men's retreat this weekend, I decided to pick up a...
Still Struggling with Food? Me Too
Would you believe it if I told you that while writing my eating disorder story I actually thought I didn't really struggle with food anymore? It's true. I really thought it no longer applied to me. Sure, I've technically been "recovered" from an eating disorder for...
Life is Worth the Weight: Body Image and Pregnancy
As little girls we spend time planning our fairy tale lives: our lavish weddings, our extravagant dream homes, the perfect husband (who will always be romantic) and the number of children we will have. What we don’t spend time planning is dealing with the stress of...
Is it Time to Stop Blaming Barbie?
"Finally, Barbie will look more like us!" The radio DJ exclaimed. "This will help little girls feel better about themselves. It's so great for them." She gushed. But is it true? Will the new, curvier Barbies--or their darker skin or shorter stature...
I Don’t Want to Be the Fat Friend
“I don’t want to be the fat friend!” I had never actually said the words out loud before. But as I finally admitted this truth to my husband, I was flooded with unexpected emotions. Growing up, I was (almost) always the skinniest girl wherever I went. I was proud of...
No One Knows I Worry About My Body Image
I was scrolling through Pinterest one day and found the Christian Body Image Awareness Quiz. Out of curiosity, I took the 5-Day Email Challenge and it confirmed something I already kind of knew: I have a problem. No one would be able to tell, but I struggle daily with...
Make My Heart Believe
For the better part of my life, my relationship with food, diet, exercise, and my body has been . . . complicated, to say the least. I’ve been through seasons of “plans” — i.e, Hallie’s path to less jiggle - seasons of “intentionally zero plans” - i.e., Hallie says...